laSt meaLS??

long time i didnt have my dinner with my relatives~~~ sit together having our meaL and chatting together~~ yesterday really happy because can enjoy de food and meet together with my cousins, aunty and uncle~~ yesterday reach to klang almost 1 something.. den me and my family went to my third aunty house and having our spicy meal at my cousin house~~ we just sit for a while den speed our car to my third uncle house~ visit my uncle a while because he just come back from hospital... he looks pale and very thin already compare to de last view from me to him~ after that, we go to my aunty house, that located at bukit jelutung~~ when reach there, 'wah' this word come out from my heart~~ really got my relatives at there~~ then, we at there chit chatting and wait for de time to go restaurant having our dinner meal~~ at there, i can see that al my cousins, aunty and uncle change looks already~ some cousin become handsome and preety already..haha!! almost 5pm, we went to de restaurant~ 6 cars been speed up at the highway~ really fun that time~~ when reach, we having our meal and taking pics~~ me and my bro keep on take pics because if didnt do it, mom will nag me again~~ she sure will say 'go take pics!', can imagine my mom face saying those words.. =X can say the restaurant just filled with our voice only..after our meals is finish, some of my cousins will going back to tmez~~ today meals like that end up already~~ quit sad because so fast wanna spread already~ den we continue our journey to my aunty house~~ suddenly my bro have an idea, he ask ' wanna go sing k at sunway or not?' den we been attracted already...haha.. den four of us... my bro and cousin drive car to sunway~~ when reach almost 8pm den we go book our room and sing till 11pm~~ at there, sing till siiao already~~ really enjoy and sing till no voice already..haha.. 4 of us really high already but sadly didnt take dao pics.. T.T.. when finish singing, we go back to our aunty house and sit a while only go back to tmez.. reach tmez amost 1 something le.. den when me phone up my friend, they say they at boardway~ firstly i really wanna go join them because leong come back already~~ but after me think a while i give up already~~ because go there didnt sit long and nid go back already so better dun wan go.. looks like me didnt spend much time to my friend because two days also not at tmez.. really sorry because didnt join u all~~ T.T.. 1 more day to go and i nid to go back camp site already~~ im still thinking it.. de hope that i bring before me come out from camp site, 5 of feb~~ de hope still been bringing by me but i already 100% confirm that it wont happen again.. god will not so easy let my hope come true.. wad can be done?? just wait for de day come true ba... 2moro nid go back already before 5pm.. dun wish to go back and i just start to have my fun only.. suddenly wan break down again.. haiss i quit impact with some loads.. some thinking, some ideas... make myself really flood with those.. and sometimes i really wish to give up but my heart stopped me.. now i just can finish my national service faster and came out having my study... dun wan to think so much already and just simple having my life ba.. how many time been defeat also nid to stand up and continue de journey~~~

mY 1sT step

maybe this is the 1st time i write since the new year gua~ just came back from ns~~~ tired-ing now~~~ but myself got many wanna say up~~ heres my story telling began~~

1st day when me step my foot to the camp site~~ my heart say that " wah... wad kind of camp site is this?? so nice enviroment with the greeny tree surrounded with buildings" ... when reach there, we been call up to register our name and been arrange our dorm~~~ at the 1st really boring~~ coz de 1st week nothing activities for us~ time keep on going and my heart always tell myself to keep on~~~ do not give up so fast!!! i nid to stand at de greeny place for 3 months~ so i should not give up so fast~~~ i keep on forcing myself to go on!! when wanna in de second week, many activities been given already~ my schedule very pack on starting from now... even though i try to free myself for few hours but really cant~~ early in de morning around 5 wanna wake up already and need to attend class~~ got 4 modules during this 3 month~ i keep on walking on those modules~~ in de 1st modules is 'pembinaan karakter'~~ on this modules me learn many things... become brave and do not gibe up easily~~ from impossible become possible~~ really fast that this module end up~ not easily i meet up new friend and now wanna spread agaiN~~ on de 2nd module also been taught de same things but our classmate is not same already~~ meet up with stranger ~~~ slowly minute by minute going on, at there meet up new friend agaiN~~ try to become friendly and throwing my mask~~ when me attending de module of 'integrasi', i got de braveness to talk in front of my class~~ to purpose our work~~~ at here dunno why with her support~~ she keep on call me go for it and i take my 1st step to go for it and i found that i really brave to talk in front of them~~ that time i really happy that myself can do so... but sadly after that me still got something not been say out...T.T ... wad can be do now??? i still remember that day~~ suddenly have feeling wanna write something.. but i forget to bring de paper come back... really sorry... at the camp me learn many things but now me only starting and there still got 1 more month for me to go on!!! ganbatte for myself... 4 of feb~ yesterday i have my volleyball match at camp site~~ but i didnt us my full strength at there... i dunno wad myself doing yesterday.. keep on making mistake at the court... but thanks to god give my team win it... but theres still got final match... i think de final match we will lose because the group got some pro people~~ their skill really geng~

* at here me wan to say about my friend at there... i meet up many friend at there~~ malay,chinese,indians also got..... mostly is chinese..haha~ those friend really funny and i still remember her that make me have de braveness to go on~~ i really thanks her.. for helping me so... i will remember her forever... all of us keep helping each other but at there i meet up different people.. different mind people.. we cant predict anything with our own eye~~ maybe u use our friendship but i think nevermind~ dun hope for any reward as wad he say last time.. we did something for others not wanna have de reward and their thanks...